“Change is good.”
“Change is growth.”
“Change always comes bearing gifts.”
“If nothing ever changed, there’d be no butterflies.”
So, OK. These are the quotes I found when I googled “change”.’
I didn’t find a single quote that said, “Change sucks! I hate it!”, but that’s pretty much what I am feeling these days.
My closest work friend is retiring in four weeks. She was among the group of people who interviewed me for my job 16 years ago. She’s the school counselor, and you can believe me when I tell you that she certainly has counseled me. Her kids are about 8 years ahead of mine; one girl, two boys, just like us. Her advice about parenting, sibling relationships and discipline were so profound that I still think my kids should call her “Momma two”.
At work, she has been my constant ally, my sounding board, my source of support and feedback. After every special education meeting, for twelve years, she and I put our heads together to “debrief”. She has been my anchor, she has kept me true to myself as an educator and as a mother. She’s been my friend, in every sense of the word.
So what will my world be like when I won’t have her to share my frustrations, my joys, and my little daily triumphs?
Change is growth, growth is change.
I am growing lonelier. I am growing more isolated. I feel myself becoming marginalized and set aside as a newer, younger crew of teachers comes in. I am growing rudderless and lost.
I. Do. Not. Like. Change.