Taking a big old risk here. I have a question for anyone out there who happens to have logged on (Patty, I know you are there! Mom, you are, too! Auntie T, you are my best inspiration!) I started this blog as therapy last September. I wrote my deepest pain and thorniest issues and every week more people seemed to be reading it. I was surprised and scared and thrilled. I mean, I’ll be honest, since the age of about 10, I thought that one day I would be a writer. People I didn’t even KNOW were reading my words! Yikes and yikes again!!
Then, after hitting a peak in April, my readers have fallen off sharply. I am left with several questions, and I am asking you to answer them (please???? even if you are my friend or relation?)
1) Why do I care? Why am I reading the site stats anyway? If this is supposed to be therapy, does it matter if anyone reads it other than me?
2) Am I just plain whining at this point? I mean, even I am confused by my mix of “where are my kids?” and “why are my kids all here all the time?” Did I get wicked boring? (fishing…)
3) Since it is obvious that I DO, in fact, care……should I take some steps to get my blog “out there”? Like, for example, should I turn on the “publicize” feature, which means that FB will announce each new blog? (cringe…….)
I feel embarrassed, sweaty, red faced and ridiculous when I envision my friends and relations thinking, “Oh, jeez, time to block her……” I don’t want people to read because they are feeling guilty (“I knew her in High School. I should just click on it….”). But I really, really liked having those comments from people I didn’t know! I got some from Europe! And New Zealand! Who WERE those people? And why did they read my little blog?
So….if you are one of the few folks left who is clicking on this blog….what do you advise? Publicize, or just keep utilizing this wonderfully low cost therapy? Enjoy the anonymity, or go for the public voice? I am putting myself in your hands! What do you say?
And I think you can log on without using your real name, if what you want to say is, “Seriously. Stop it.”