I am a pretty healthy eater, over all.
I love my fruits and veggies. I only buy locally raised, organic meats and eggs. I love whole grains.
It’s just that I am struggling to keep my mood upbeat, you know? Life can be stressful, and its easy to feel overwhelmed. Sometimes the combined pressures of home and work make me feel as if my life is careening out of control. I feel like I am just buffeted by the winds of the world, and that I bounce back and forth between demands on all sides.
And when I feel like that, I find that I can’t sleep. I am awake for hours, worrying about all the things that are happening without any input from me. My heart thumps, my mouth goes dry, and I lie awake as rigid as a board.
And when I get up in the morning, after a night of worrying about everything from a nuclear Iran to the new math standards, I find that I am irritable and short tempered the whole next day. I snap at poor Paul, I yell at the news, I grumble at the dogs. If I’m at school, I am snippy with the kids.
This is not good. Not at all. So what’s a cranky, middle aged lady to do?
Today I tried the usual mood lifters. I went on the elliptical for a half hour. Ended up crabby and sore.
I soaked in the hot tub. Now I was crabby, sore and hot.
I took a long walk with the dogs and Paul out in the back woods, in the fresh spring air. You guessed it, crabby, sore, hot and covered in pine needles.
I don’t want to turn to a glass of wine; that is a slippery slope that I’d rather avoid! When it comes to altering moods, a drink feels like a very bad idea.
So what could I do? I had no choice. It was noon on Sunday, with a very busy, very stressful week looming ahead.
I did what any crabby old Italian lady would do.
This is why I will never be thin. But at least when it cools, I might be more cheerful!