Sometimes I just don’t want to know.
I don’t want to know that thousands of my fellow citizens are actually considering casting a vote for a guy whose only credentials include being a rude loudmouthed braggart. They think that amassing millions of dollars and badmouthing politicians make him “honest” and “outspoken.”
I don’t want to know that those people are ignoring his racism, his misogyny, his self love………….. I don’t want to know that they have forgotten what happens in the world when a strong nation decides to support a dangerous xenophobe who encourages them to blame all of their problems on those pesky inferior minorities.
Sometimes I just don’t want to know.
I don’t want to have to face the fact that some people in my country are so filled with hate and viciousness that they would take away health services for poor women by making up ugly lies about those who provide those services. I can’t stand knowing that some people can so torture and twist the English language that they use the phrase “pro-life” to defend their illegal and immoral actions as they literally threaten the lives of medical workers who provide cancer care, screenings and- most ironic and enraging of all- who provide contraceptive care to women in need.
Sometimes reality is just too much for me. I don’t want to believe that I actually live in a country where some of our “leaders” encourage more of us to carry guns in theaters, churches and schools. I don’t think I can stand the realization that the money from the NRA means more to my government than the lives of little children or innocent old ladies.
There are days when I tell myself that I really need to turn off the TV and the radio. I tell myself that I can’t change anything. I can’t make people think of Hitler when they listen to Trump. I can’t make them own up to the fact (the actual fact!) that Planned Parenthood prevents far more pregnancy than it ends, or that only 3% of its services include abortion. I try to convince myself that there is truly nothing I can do to end the out of control spiral of gun violence in my country.
There are days when I want to be a Hobbit. I want to live in the Shire, where my greatest concern would be planning for the “Party” and weeding my beautiful garden. There are days………
Empty Nest, Full Life 
More and more days like this.
But, because Trump really is a mirror into what the GOP has been preaching for years, I think it is time that their voters look it smack in the face. I plan to watch tomorrow. Because, I’m hoping that enough people will watch and realize that a food fight is just that, and that we shouldn’t elect as our leader the person who slings the most shit.
I often forget that I really am an optimist.
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I am just so incredibly disheartened that Lindsey Graham, with whom I don’t agree on most things, but who at least has served for years, knows what he’s talking about and is not an idiot, can’t get any traction, but the country loves that horrific and dangerous Trump. It truly scares me. And I don’t think that the Republicans have done this; I think the voters have. Sickening……..
And that doesn’t even touch on the Planned Parenthood attacks!!!! Some of those staff members are in fear for their lives, and they are NURSES! What the hell. When did we turn into Iran?
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Oh, Moms. I don’t think we turned into Iran! We turned into The Creature From The Black Lagoon!
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Just keep being yourself, MomShieb, and you’ll always provide an example to the world of what a person can (and should!) be like…
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You can’t really wish for ignorance because then you’d be like The Donald.
This too shall pass…
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Sigh. You always talk me out of my nice safe denial…….
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Moms. I so agree with you about the weariness of it all. But that has always been the case throughout history. But good people must not look away or grow weary. We must keep sounding the warning bell. Take a break if you must, but don’t stay away from the scene of the crime too long. Come back and sound the alarm. If not, we are doomed to repeat the worst part of the world’s histories. Take heart my friend and carry on.
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Thank you, my dear! Maybe its because of our brand new Ellie, but somehow witnessing the craziness just seems to be too much. The attacks on Planned Parenthood, in particular, have me just so discouraged!
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I have a slightly different view about those tapes. I have to admit (allowing that they are heavily edited) that the capricious tone of the president is very disturbing, and I am pro-choice. We shouldn’t be afraid to take a good hard look, sort out what is manipulation and see if this is what we want to support. I realize that the Repubs have an agenda, but that shouldn’t keep us from really seeing if PP hasn’t misrepresented themselves as well. The truth is what we need, then we can make informed decisions.
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I know what you mean, but I have an acquaintance who has been smeared by these tapes; a nurse who has never been involved in a single abortion, but the edited tapes make it look like she is a monster. She is in hiding, in fear for her life.
That is simply unacceptable, not to mention criminal! I am just so tired of the crazies!
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I’m reminded of a bumper sticker I’ve seen: “If you’re not pissed off, you’re not paying attention.”
And yet, it IS so exhausting, isn’t it, trying to make a difference and get people to listen to reason amongst all the media noise? Thanks for inspiring us.
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I remember that bumper sticker! Wow, I think its time to bring it back!
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