Sometimes I just want to roll back time. Just back, back, back.
I have been in love with my husband since we were 17 years old. That’s 42 years. Holy crow.
Sometimes I wish that I could wind back the movie reel of my life, and see Paul as I saw him so many years ago. What did I think of him when I met him at the tender age of 12? Did I notice him at all on the first day of seventh grade? Did he notice me? What did we each see and feel when we became friends over the next few years? What exactly was it that made us begin to see each other differently, to fall in love? I think I know, but I wish I could go back.
I wish I could go back to see.
I wish I could wind the clock back, back, back. Back to the time when my Dad was still alive. Back to when he used to play with my children. Back to when I could hear him laugh. Back to the night when we ate cioppini together and laughed and slurped and dunked our bread into our dishes.
There are times when I wish I could roll it all back and back and back again. Sometimes I miss my own childhood. I miss being the little girl who was so carefully taken care of. I would like to see my world through that girl’s eyes once again. I’d like to go back to the easy days. When finding a little bag of Fritos in my lunch was the most exciting thing in a week. When my biggest problem was the mess in my closet.
Back to the day when my siblings and I were a pack, like a bunch of puppies. When loving each other was effortless. Back to when we could give each other “noogies” or “Indian Sunburns” and scream and cry, but be best friends again an hour later.
I wish I could roll it all back. I wish I could go back to those days with the knowledge and the wisdom that I have now. I would look at each of those people, my husband, my father, my big pack of brothers and sisters, and I would look each one in the eye and say, right out loud: “No matter what. I will always, always love you.”
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I was touched by your love story; wishing to go back. Wonderfully sentimental post.
Thank you! Feeling nostalgic today.
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Wouldn’t that be wonderful. The sounds, the laughter, the smells. I wanna go back too.
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Me too. xo
I know honey, especially now……
What wonderful, bittersweet memories. Love you.
Love you back!