But I’m a very good Nonni!
Tonight is the last night of summer for my daughter, the fifth grade teacher. I know exactly what this night feels like for her. I taught in the same school district as Kate for more than 20 years. I know the feeling of that last night at home, that last night of knowing that you’ll be there with your babies all day. The night that is filled with the ticking clock of doom.
I remember the feelings of anxiety and excitement as I’d look forward to the first day back at work as a teacher. Those first few days of organizing, decorating the classroom, meeting with colleagues, calling parents, and more meetings.
Exciting, exhausting, thrilling and nerve wracking.
My daughter heads back into school tomorrow, but for her everything will be different this year, because this is the 2020. This is the year of the pandemic. The year of lockdowns and masks and baths in Purell. Nothing will be the same this year.
I know that all of my good friends who are teachers are as sad and scared and excited as my Kate is tonight. I send my love and my sympathy for the angst that I know they are all feeling.
Truly! My heart is filled with admiration and gratitude to every single teacher, administrator, teaching assistant, school nurse and school psychologist out there. What a stressful night it is for all of you tonight!
So I love you. And I’m sorry.
I’m sorry to all of you, but especially to my beloved firstborn child, Kate, the teacher. I apologize. Mea culpa. Please don’t hate me.
Don’t hate me because I am so euphoric that tonight is the last night of your summer vacation! Whooie!!!!!!
I will be back in the saddle as of tomorrow morning. I will be Nonni in charge. Nonni on duty. La Nonna di tutti Nonni.
I will spend tomorrow with baby Max, all of five months old. I’ll rock him, change him, sing him ridiculous songs about whales and hearts and Uncles and eyebrows.
He will have my full attention, and he will be my total focus.
Holy baby cuddles, I am lucky!
Max doesn’t really know me yet, and tomorrow will be a big challenge for him. And a day of heartache for his Momma.
But for me? Tomorrow is the first day of my next year of grandchild care. Tomorrow I get to be my very best self.
Tomorrow I will feel useful.
I’m sorry that I don’t feel sad. I can’t help it.
I am NONNI, hear me roar!!!! Bring on the school year, baby. Nonni is ready to roll!